In Sixth

Six months after giving birth, I am still learning to be Little Miss Mommy.  I think the learning process is steep not only because you become responsible for a little one but also because you discover things about yourself.

I discovered that I am actually a good mom not because I act like sitcom moms (you know, the cheery, home cooking kind) but because I have great instincts about what she needs. I am also quite empathetic and somehow I feel what she feels. Sometimes I actually know what she needs even before she realizes it.

Just the other day, I knew that she was tired so I tried to make her sleep. She resisted and started crying. So I put her down on the floor so she can crawl. She still cried.  I tried to feed her and more tears came. Finally, she decided I was right and closed her eyes. She fell asleep.

It is true that moms have good gut feel about what their kids need even before the kids know themselves. No wonder so many mom and kid teams have huge fights. Gut feelings are very hard to qualify and communicate!

Parenthood is a very unique experience. All the books, movies, conversations, TV episodes and countless internet articles, could never ever prepare anyone.  Each baby is different. Every mom and kid relationship is different.I can only prepare for what is ahead but never will I be able to really prepare for it.