10 Thousand

In Malcolm Gladwell's Outliers, he claims that a person reaches expert proficiency after ten thousand hours of practice. If I apply the same logic to mommyhood, it means that it will take years before I become actually good at this.

I have been feeling that I have not been a good enough mom to the little one recently.  I think I watched way too many TV shows and movies about how moms should be.  Movies always seem to portray moms as fashionable, organized and good household keepers. I do not fit in any of those categories. H said I am a good mom but I still feel that I fall short every single day.  

I am pretty sure I am not alone in this beautiful struggle but that being said, I still feel that this battle is personal.  It is mine to conquer. No matter how many people tell me this and that and give me UNSOLICITED advice, I will never be confident until I decide to be.